Meditative

i'm so tired. didn't sleep at all last night.. was thinking. about alot of things. sad thoughts, happy thoughts, about my past, reflected on my life as it is. basically more of reminiscing the past.. i always thought that i have moved on.. seems like i haven't. thinking about life itself. about one's comings and goings.. i'm so beat i don't even know what i'm talking about. i need sleep. thought about death. thought about human relations. thought about love. thought about concern in the world. thought about the human population... thought about the numerous sad case studies on pple not getting married by 35.. i dunnoe thought alot. basically because of my cousin. he's about 30 odd. very nice, sweet, filial, charming, shy, no temper, had a bad marriage, basically the most eligible bachelor i know. he's so husband material. he's so nice and cute in his own little way. sigh it seems sad that he doesn't have someone to be with. if there's anyone out there who knows a nice lass and think they can hook up tog, let me know... we can plan things out. :) also about death cos my unc passed away yesterday afternoon. i'm saddened. not by the fact that he's gone but rather, i rarely get to see him and when i do, its a dead body. its sad. i guess in a way yes, i'm sad that he's gone. but well, he's 78. he had lived his life. rest in peace.
i'm really tired. i may not sound logical in this entry. forgive me.

*going studying wit daniel and weng later. hope i can wake up. short nails help me type with ease. but now my hands look so damn bloody small. hmm...
**Next month when i get my pocket money, first thing i will buy is a sony ericsson cable.

.:pseudonym:. burned at 2:06 PM