BURNT BURNT BURNT
so badly burnt today and yesterday at work.. if there was a blackout now, you could ask me to look for the torch.. my cheeks are glowing. so pain. and so are my eyelids.. rragh.
Ooo new pple at work now(trainer dept), there's jayce, a nice girl who claims that she is 29.. but i seriously doubt that.. not that she is not trustable but rather she looks young... then there's jim, haha lame name. i'm sorry. heh. but a great guy anyway, grad from nus, ee.. hates ee.. haha. wdv, thought he was really shy at first, then realize he is pretty crappy just like the most of us.. heh. got dimples! ooo.. haha, for huPs? :)) what are friends for..?
neway, DID MY FIRST SHOW!!!!!!!!! FINALLY!!!! LIKE IN THREE YEARS!!!! wahahahhaa, my first show presentation, was decided in like 5 minutes. at 10.45 on saturday morn, i casually said to asnul, eh, let me do 11 o'clock la.. usually he would say to other pple, ok do 1.30i'll prepare you first. but surprising he asked michael and they said ok! so i was like, crap! gotta change into presenter clothes! haha~ pretty fun.. wasn't as scary as i thought it would be.. but guess i'm more relazed cos i've seen like a dozens of shows.. and have always wanted to present it.. just, aiyah, asnul wants me to be the one who asks, and i on the other hand kinda wanted asnul to ask me., so yea, hah! glad that i really did it this time after much hesitation! so far did 2 shows on sat and 1 today.. yayys. many more to come`` :)
Bernard says he cannot cope with uni work and working part time anymore so he's planning to tell asnul that he's gonna stop.. :( sad leh. no more nerd to bully le.. haiz. but he say he will work on vacation.. so yayy. just have to bear it now.. he's really fun to work with ah.. haha`` haiz. soon enough farah will leave too.. then, we'll all have to start back at square one, getting to know the person and waitingfor the person to open up. nerd took 2 months to open up with me.. wa lau eh. damn slow lor.. then guest relations dept will be in shambles.. kinda like the usage of singlish currently.. haha cos of san san la.. (marine mammal trainer, very cute ah this girle)
this afternoon went to macs with all the marine mammal trainers working today, clarice, keith, jamie, san, tan and jim. had lots of laughs and was really fun.. really they're less stressed when certain trainers are not there. felt really great having lunch with em.. i almost spit out the coke and fries i was having, numerous occations. hah.
also went for dinner just now, together with bernard and 2 other male colleagues. which included the one whom i confessed to. and now i really question myself, what the shit do i see in him?? sad man. the attraction is there, but on a mental level, really really really really don't think can make it. the worst combination yet ever. usually relationships bloom with mental attraction then slowly, physical attraction. this one started the other way. how sad can my life be?..
wdv man. wdv.

i also realize that recently i have been doing things that i would not normally do. trying out new things in life. i am glad. like at least now i can look back without regret and also feel that i have led a more fulfilling life. like in a year even working at dL and still haven't given a single show presentation. that would really suck. yes this is just one of the many things that i feel that i'm glad i did something about it. :) ahh.... self revelation.

so neway will be skipping classes tmr to study with dan and weng. wish me luck in sustaining concentration! ciao!

.:pseudonym:. burned at 9:36 PM