hello folks. its a saturday night and i'm at home. it is only 9. no one's home.
well, turns out i couldn't do what i initially planned to do today. feel kinda low now.. no one could meet up with me to share my sorrow.. ok maybe not no one.. but rather i was also too tired to meet anyway. things i didn't get to do:

• apologise
• get his number-i never once replied his smses or saved his number, that was how mean i was.
• just chat
• understand him better
• tell him how i really feel

didn't expect myself to feel so miserable just cos he said he couldn't make it tonight. [i was actually considering what my friend said: that this could all have been just a intial one off fatal attraction thing. since we are that animalistic at times.] i don't know what has gotten into me man. i am seldom so not in control. so yea. kinda hate this feeling.. then again. its like a love /hate relationship; this feeling. so wdv. maybe tmr will be a better day.

konked out.

.:pseudonym:. burned at 9:05 PM