i finally had the balls to msg him last night at 1 after getting his number from nerd, who apologised like mad, "huh? oh man, then who i send the number to??" yup.. nerd he is...
so yea it was kinda weird but in a nice way.. guess i couldn't have stunned him more.. haa.
not only was i suddenly nice, i told him how i felt about him.. hooo boy. this ought to be the first time i actually confessed. feels kinda good..? heh` i don't expect anything in return.. just needed to really get it out of my system and probably move on..? may or may not dwell... we'll just have to see huh..
but really, he's such an incredulously nice person... despite me being and ass and all, he told me to think nothing of it.. and said, i quote"i won't get angry so easily, we're still friends right?.." sweeeet.. i mean i should be the one asking that question.. heh... makes me sooooooo guilty man.. hha wadever.

between regret and telling myself at least i tried...
i chose the latter...