IT LIVESS!!!!!!!!
its been a bad few days. you can tell from me not updating. not that i refrain from but rather cos, my internet was down. apparently some prankster decided to play punk and hacked into our wireless network and therefore played around with the settings. i get acess from my laptop so i couldn't get connected. plus all the school work that requires the internet. its killing me. and i'm killing the christmas sprit. school in december is jsut so wrong i tell you. just wrong.

my final year experiment is not going too smoothly. lots of laboratory screw ups. feel so fucked sometimes. so much crap waiting to be done. i'm not a very good organiser with time management. so i get really irked when things don't turn out the way they're suppoed to cos that'll mean that i'd be behind time. oh well. and i try to keep my sanity.

so much has happened the past what, 13 days? weddings, birthdays. the last minute christmas shopping. the required shopping that is. i can't afford to actually spend this christmas. really tight budget i'm running on.

we celebrated grandma's birthday differently this year, instead of eating out we catered at home. so everyone gathered and came. it was sweet to have eveyone back at her place. just like old times. i remmebr we'd always gather on sunday for lunch it was nice to gather, but we stopped when she had her stroke. but she has recovered now anyway, she's one strong woman.
i look at grandpa and tinged. he's old. i can see how time has affected him. he's even dependent on adult diapers now. and even though he might not know who i am cos he suffers from alzheimer's, i still go up to his bed to talk to him in our dialect. and it really amazes me about what he talks about. he sees my two baby nieces and he talks about how time is such a funny thing. he said everyone will grow up, get old and end up in his state or somewhat like him. i teared that night. but of course not in front of my grandma. i mean, i love my grandpa alot. so much. so so much. and talking to him makes me feel so bad that i cannot talk like before. like when he tod me aboujt his travels and about how he survived WWII. i love him so much i don't know what i would do if he's gone.
to look at him in the state that he's in, just makes my heart bleed.

also, my cousin got married. my dad's cousin's daughter. i.e. my cousin i shuold believe. a family kin anyway. took a couple of pictures but they're not with me, will post them up when i do get them, which i hope is not never.
oh and i drove to the wedding. been driving alot around recently. alone even. i think that's good progress.. but i still can't really park all that well. don't think i will ever dare try parallel parking. don't know if i would be allowed to drive around when my parents leave for hongkong this monday. they'll be back on the 3rd. so we(my brother and i) will have to take care of the house. i'm fine, so i have stayed alone before when they went on a 3 week holiday. but i do' know about him. he can get quite careless about household appliances sometimes. and i pray, everyday.

the other day i saw an old lady fall. in front of my eyes. about 50 metres away from me, she was walking past the bus stop. and of all the working adults that were waiting for their morning bus, it was a punk-ish looking youngster that helped her up, he ran foward from behind the bus stop. the adults were standing beside her. sometimes i thinkt hat the most uncaring pple are those working as executives. it was pretty disheartening. ie why i never believe in first appearances and outer looks.how cruel and unfeeling can the world get?

well, its 11.30 and i just got my internet working after much yelling at my brother and begging him to get it up and running, so looks like my 10 days of hard work finally paid off. so now, i can, hmm.. peacefully get my work done and enjoy the next week where christmas will be coming. ;)
this year i'd be attending a small party organised by my colleagues on eve. i have finally thought of waht to get for hte exchange present segment. its a nodding solar powered ornament? something like that. here's a few pictures:




i used to think that they were ridiculous cos their heads kept bobbing for no reason. but i added a card like note. it read:

life's beautiful
live life
love life
embrace love
stop to smell the roses
but most importantly
never regret life's choices.
have a merry christmas.

think that the note made it more thoughtful. it kinda mafde m ethink that its directly at me. hah. i bought the first one. the fishing one. cos they have a pretty stressful job so i wanted the "hida" to make they life a smoother ride. like get them relaxed. i hope they don;t laugh and say its childish. :x

oh my its already 12 and i still have stuff to do. toodles. love everyone out there.