so.... confusing
so have you been good of late?

whenever i want to post something, i can't seem to get my thoughts in order.
its like since you've already missed out on so much, you can't get it right anymore.
i went for a massage earlier cos of my persistant back ache. and fucking hell was it pain.

my shoulder blade was hurting more than ever, ever since i tipped the scuba tank behind my shoulder while i was carrying it. and now, its knotted. knotted cos i have been sleeping in air conditioned room while it was trying to heal. (according tot he grest masseuse) she was so great she could tell i enter the water frequently and that i didn't sleep early as i should everyday. its almost freaky.

but now its all sore and painful. which i kinda like, i look like i have been elected in a new indian tribe off south of states. its real cool. she did cupping which eventually gave me a "ribbed back" its almost as if you can see my bones, but it is just bruises in line..

so.. going to sleep and rest my day away since it is off day.
and hope i find enlightenment in my life when i wake up tmr.

.:pseudonym:. burned at 1:13 AM